A-Ha

That was it... we didn't start fighting until we stopped spending so much time together, because I was unhappy with that. Then, when we were talking about moving in together, we hesitated because we were arguing too much.

It was a self-perpetuating cycle. That was it.

Thoughts

... to try and recapture it.

We were thinking of moving in together (yes, THAT good). We started fighting after I freaked out. Then decided not to move in together because we were fighting too much.

Was that it?

Hell hell hell.

Fucking Hell

I re-read the last post after I wrote it, and I missed the kicker, which was the bit of info I realized whilst standing in the shower.

And I was talking to her today, and I remembered it... and then promptly forgot it again.

And now, I'm reading the last post and I can't remember the damned thing.

I HATE having ADD sometimes.

Long Time No Read

Yep. It's been a while, but now I have something to write about again.

See, I'm on kind of a forced death march of discovery. And I was standing in the shower today when I was given yet another swat of the clue bat.

I was in a relationship... what was a really good relationship for a long time. But in the last two months, it went from really good to done.

Part of the problem - okay, a lot of the problem - was me. I was basically kind of an ass, took her for granted, and a lot of other stuff that I may get into later. Needless to say, after two months of not getting what she needed, she dumped me, and was basically kind of right to do so.

Anyway, getting to the point of this, since it's basically my outlet... I figured something out today. We had been spending a LOT of time together, and I was actually really happy with that. She wasn't getting enough of what she needed, but that's another story as well... but I was good with it. Until someone outside of the relationship mentioned it to someone else (that's a private story). So I freaked out and said we needed to not spend as much time together. And then got mad because, eventually, we didn't spend as much time together.

That was around two months ago. Things weren't the same after that. And I'm pretty sure that right there is where I messed up.